I'll make a new account. Completely separating myself from this one, I'll abandon most fandoms that left me with painful memories (Invader Zim, Yugioh and maybe even Adventure Time, perhaps even Homestuck)
I'll only tell the address to my friends, since I doubt anyone actually reads what i write and looks at what I post. I won't deactivate this account, because I want you to be able to still fav my drawings.
Why I'm moving?
Shit happened I guess and I want a fresh start. Completely from zero.
This account started with The Rasmus, when i only had friends from the forums that never caused me any harm, but once I joined IZ and met certain people that changed my life completely, changed who i am...
When I joined, I was always a person that was cold headed in every situation, i never cared about what people said about me.
I met "friends" that I loved with all my heart, since I'm always loyal to my friends. Always. It was good for a short while, my cold personality was changing, since i wanted to be just as caring and sweet as my friends.
This behavior threw me a curve ball in 2010. My "loyalty" betrayed me when I was forced to pick sides, I ended up making enemies.
Time went and went.. i lost my first friend in around that time.
I still hung around with my first IZ friend tho.. the only 2 people i had from outside poland.
2011...it was a pleasant year, because it was my first visit in Denmark, i visited her and i was just so glad to see her..but happiness didn't last long.
2011 was the last year i had with her, after that she was fighting with me constantly and it was only worse and worse..
But yesterday it finally ended. I have her yet another chance but she flunked it...
I got so damaged by that so called friend, i just want to leave EVERYTHING that reminds me of her.
I want new friends, i want to be who i used to be. I want to be a prick that just doesn't give a damn about anything, I want to stop feeling lonely and feel fine in my own company, i don't want to worry about people until i feel sick in my gut, i don't want to keep getting hurt anymore T^T I've been abused for way too long...
I'll only keep the people i trust...only...they know who they are...
I just want a nice life for once.....
Goodbye, it was nice while it lasted.